Post by BleekerBOP on Mar 9, 2006 16:16:44 GMT -5
Practice...Practice....Practice was all I did since the day me and the guy who lives in my
house fought. Coach has had me running suicides all day since he said I need an attitude
adjustment. Fuck he doesn't know whats going on with me so I really don't care about the
whole attitude thing. After practice I put my weights on my ankles and arms and start
jogging home. This was my time to get away from it all...playing basketball was killin me
since the fight. My ribs are still sore from getting pounded on by that alcoholic fuck. As I'm
approaching my street I see Shalin walking with Kiara...i'm really not in the mood for
Kiara's shit today but theres no avoiding it...I start to run by them and here it comes.
"Damn you too good to say hi nigga"
"Sup Kia-"
"Nah don't sup me, I mean WTF you weren't gonna say it before"
I really was not in the mood to argue but if she wanted me to go off thats what she would
get if she didn't shut the fuck up.
"Kiara i'm not in the mood for your shit today so keep walking with Shalin and leave me the fuck alone please"
"Nigga who the fuck do you think your talking to...I know you not talking to me right now"
"I am talking to you, who the fuck else would I be talking to-"
"Yeah your right because your to pu$$y to talk to Shalin right? Mr. Busy...you are such a bitch"
"Kia leave him alone and lets just go it's not that serious"
"Yeah I suggest you listen to your friend"
"Or what you gonna do nigga....slap me around like your father does you?!"
I couldn't believe what I just heard....I looked at Shalin who was damn near tears and
then to Kiara who, realizing the severity of what she just said started to apologize...but I
wasn't hearing anything this bitch had to say.
"Chris I didn't have anybody to talk to about it i didn't-"
"Chris I'm sorry I took it too far I didn't mean to go at you like-"
I raised my hands and shook my head at both of them. No matter how many problems
me and Kiara had I would never say any out the way shit about her.
"You know what I give the fuck up, I can't fuckin win I mean who else knows Shalin?!"
By this time I was standing right in front of Shalin screaming....I knew it hurt her and it
was killing me but this shit was between me and her. Everybody else would have found
out eventually...
"Kia, Trey, Nikki and Dru..."
I stepped back and looked at the both of them.....I really was alone
"Fuck both of ya'll"
With that said I continued to jog to my house thinking about what just happened. Maybe I
was too harsh...maybe I overreacted....maybe I didn't care anymore. Why should I care
about anybody else and they don't care about me. I went inside and took a shower and
laid out across the bed in a pair of sweats and a beater. I quickly picked up my phone as
it was buzzing on my nightstand and saw Treys name flash....fuck man now what.
"Hello"
"Sup man wtf happened with you, Kia and Shalin"
Since he already knew what was going on here I told him everything that went down...I
expected just what came out of his mouth.
"Yo man you should go apologize man, she didn't mean that shit, Dru called me talkin about shes over his house crying hard. Shes worried about you, we all are"
"That ain't happening, i'm tired of her fuckin mouth"
"Yo we were talkin the other night, Chris you need to find somebody to help u and your mom-"
These motherfucka's were having meeting and shit about me now?!
"Talking?! you know what I don't have time for the intervention ya'll are trying to do..."
I flipped the phone shut and dropped it back on the bed. I looked up at my ceiling and
listened as my mother and father screamed back and forth downstairs....followed by
silence. It was weird that I grew used to this nightly cycle they had. I never went to check
on her anymore, I would just listen for her footsteps as she walked in the bedroom and he
went outside. She never checked on me after the fight we had, I knew she saw the
bruises but never said a word. I knew it was only a matter of time before me and my
father came to blows again. The tension between us was thick and he knew I was itchin to
tap that jaw one good time. I picked up my phone as it started buzzing again and saw it
was Shalin. I hit ignore and turned my phone off. I don't wanna hear anymore apologies
from anybody. Stop fucking up my life then you won't have to apologize. I looked back at
the past few weeks and couldn't believe my life had took such a change. I went from
social to recluse....all around good guy to tortured youth. Because of him. I couldn't
believe this shit was happening...I let him in without even knowing it. He slipped in my
head and I didn't even realize it until now.....I let him in and now I have to get him out.....
alone....
chapter 10 coming tonight since this was short
house fought. Coach has had me running suicides all day since he said I need an attitude
adjustment. Fuck he doesn't know whats going on with me so I really don't care about the
whole attitude thing. After practice I put my weights on my ankles and arms and start
jogging home. This was my time to get away from it all...playing basketball was killin me
since the fight. My ribs are still sore from getting pounded on by that alcoholic fuck. As I'm
approaching my street I see Shalin walking with Kiara...i'm really not in the mood for
Kiara's shit today but theres no avoiding it...I start to run by them and here it comes.
"Damn you too good to say hi nigga"
"Sup Kia-"
"Nah don't sup me, I mean WTF you weren't gonna say it before"
I really was not in the mood to argue but if she wanted me to go off thats what she would
get if she didn't shut the fuck up.
"Kiara i'm not in the mood for your shit today so keep walking with Shalin and leave me the fuck alone please"
"Nigga who the fuck do you think your talking to...I know you not talking to me right now"
"I am talking to you, who the fuck else would I be talking to-"
"Yeah your right because your to pu$$y to talk to Shalin right? Mr. Busy...you are such a bitch"
"Kia leave him alone and lets just go it's not that serious"
"Yeah I suggest you listen to your friend"
"Or what you gonna do nigga....slap me around like your father does you?!"
I couldn't believe what I just heard....I looked at Shalin who was damn near tears and
then to Kiara who, realizing the severity of what she just said started to apologize...but I
wasn't hearing anything this bitch had to say.
"Chris I didn't have anybody to talk to about it i didn't-"
"Chris I'm sorry I took it too far I didn't mean to go at you like-"
I raised my hands and shook my head at both of them. No matter how many problems
me and Kiara had I would never say any out the way shit about her.
"You know what I give the fuck up, I can't fuckin win I mean who else knows Shalin?!"
By this time I was standing right in front of Shalin screaming....I knew it hurt her and it
was killing me but this shit was between me and her. Everybody else would have found
out eventually...
"Kia, Trey, Nikki and Dru..."
I stepped back and looked at the both of them.....I really was alone
"Fuck both of ya'll"
With that said I continued to jog to my house thinking about what just happened. Maybe I
was too harsh...maybe I overreacted....maybe I didn't care anymore. Why should I care
about anybody else and they don't care about me. I went inside and took a shower and
laid out across the bed in a pair of sweats and a beater. I quickly picked up my phone as
it was buzzing on my nightstand and saw Treys name flash....fuck man now what.
"Hello"
"Sup man wtf happened with you, Kia and Shalin"
Since he already knew what was going on here I told him everything that went down...I
expected just what came out of his mouth.
"Yo man you should go apologize man, she didn't mean that shit, Dru called me talkin about shes over his house crying hard. Shes worried about you, we all are"
"That ain't happening, i'm tired of her fuckin mouth"
"Yo we were talkin the other night, Chris you need to find somebody to help u and your mom-"
These motherfucka's were having meeting and shit about me now?!
"Talking?! you know what I don't have time for the intervention ya'll are trying to do..."
I flipped the phone shut and dropped it back on the bed. I looked up at my ceiling and
listened as my mother and father screamed back and forth downstairs....followed by
silence. It was weird that I grew used to this nightly cycle they had. I never went to check
on her anymore, I would just listen for her footsteps as she walked in the bedroom and he
went outside. She never checked on me after the fight we had, I knew she saw the
bruises but never said a word. I knew it was only a matter of time before me and my
father came to blows again. The tension between us was thick and he knew I was itchin to
tap that jaw one good time. I picked up my phone as it started buzzing again and saw it
was Shalin. I hit ignore and turned my phone off. I don't wanna hear anymore apologies
from anybody. Stop fucking up my life then you won't have to apologize. I looked back at
the past few weeks and couldn't believe my life had took such a change. I went from
social to recluse....all around good guy to tortured youth. Because of him. I couldn't
believe this shit was happening...I let him in without even knowing it. He slipped in my
head and I didn't even realize it until now.....I let him in and now I have to get him out.....
alone....
chapter 10 coming tonight since this was short
