"My Funny Valentine"

[Sweet Meat aka CC]

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My Funny Valentine

MEMORIES
by Mary J. Blige

VERSE 1:
Sitting here all alone on Valentine's Day
I really wanna call him up
But my pride is all in the way, hey
Picture's getting clearer
I see what's been going wrong for years
The ones you say are far, really are so near
I'm thinking of

CHORUS:
Roses that you sent to me
All the kisses that you gave to me
Memories of what we used to be
All alone this special day
Thinking 'bout the time you went away
Valentine's Day will never be the same

VERSE 2:
How come men nowadays bring you so much joy
And so much pain
Can anybody help me
I think I'm going insane
Valentine's Day will never be the same
Cause I think about you always
I cherish everything you gave to me
I'm thinking of

[REPEAT CHORUS]

BRIDGE:
You took my love for granted
Then you mean to think that
Everything was fine between me and you
Everytime this day comes around
I wanna feel your touch
I can't believe what you did to me
I hate cha, did me wrong
But still I must move on
I gotta move on, ooh oh

[REPEAT CHORUS]
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2/14/04 - 2:54 a.m.
It’s been a year since catching my ex-boyfriend of three years, Xavier, in the arms of another woman. And would you believe that he was stupid enough to have the slut in his home when I caught him? Call me crazy, but it’s like he wanted me to catch him because he knew how I would drop by his place at the drop of a hat. But that’s not even the half of it…I caught him two days before Valentine’s Day. After he was caught red-handed with his pants down, so to speak, he tried to run some bullsh!t on me about how he slipped up although he would never stop loving me. There was a time when I would’ve fell for what he told me, but like my girl Kelis sings: “You might trick me once, but I won’t let you trick me twice”!

Now here it is several hours into Valentine’s Day 2004. And what am I doing to celebrate it? I’m sitting here on the sill of the large window in my new apartment that I moved into about a month ago while watching the night sky as it weeps along with me as I hold my Siamese cat that I lovingly named Smokey. He was given to me on my last birthday by Xavier. Although Smokey acts like a big baby, he always comforts me when I need it most like right now as I listen and hum along to Dru Hill’s “All Alone” that I have kept on repeat for the past few nights.

Earlier in the evening, my younger sister, Dayna, tried to get me out of the house to have dinner and catch a movie with her, but I’m just not in the mood to do anything.

Uh oh. My new neighbor just pulled his ride up into his parking space. He lives across the hall from me, but I still don’t know his name although we both say hi whenever we see each other. Maybe I’ve sat in this window too much lately, but I always notice that he comes home on Friday and Saturday nights around 3:00 a.m. like clockwork. I wonder where he’s always coming from? And another thing that I have noticed about him is that he’s always hanging out with about 2 or 3 guys. I’ve never seen him with a female although that’s really none of my business anyway. But I gotta admit that he’s quite a cutie even though he’s leaning on the lanky side.

Ah well, I guess I’ll turn in for now. I’ve cried and listened to Sisqo repeatedly sing “All Alone” long enough.

[Sweet Meat aka CC]

2/14/04 - 9:14 a.m.
“Wake up, sleepyhead!”, my mother chuckled when I answered my phone several hours later. When I glanced at my clock, I saw that it was after 9:00 although it felt like I had just shut my eyes.

“Hey, ma.”, I chuckled in a hoarse voice.

“Are you okay?”

“Yes, I’m fine.”

“You sure? Your sister told me that she still can’t get you out of the house.”

Oh no…here we go! I know ma deeply loves and cares for me, but I can’t stand when she tries to get me to talk about how I’m feeling regarding the breakup between Xavier and I. She thinks that because she goes to therapy for her own set of problems that she can get me to talk about mine with her. Well mother or no mother, I didn’t want to talk about anything that involved what I had been through in the past year. I still wasn’t ready to.

“Ma…I said I’m fine. I’m juss comin’ down with a small cold or somethin’.”, I replied while fighting back a new set of tears. After all, today was a reminder of why I was in the shape I was in right now.

“La La, baby, I juss want’chu to be open with me. I’m your mother and it’s my job to help you get over the hurt that you’re feelin’.”, she sighed.

Man, this woman NEVER gives up!

“Ma, how’s Daddy doin’?”, I asked while trying to change the subject.

“He’s asleep right now, but he’s doin’ fine.”, she replied.

“Oh, okay then. Well, I’ll talk with you later. I love you…buh bye.”, I quickly stated before ending my call with her. I am not in the mood to argue with her today.

Slowly standing up from my bed, I grabbed some clean clothes to put on after my shower. I decided on a pair of black sweatpants and a gray GAP sweatshirt.

Once I was done with my shower, I stood in front of the bathroom mirror and attempted to pick and finger comb my hair after unbraiding it. However, I decided to leave my hair alone since I knew I wasn’t going anywhere at the moment. If I did have to go out to the store or somewhere later, I’d worry with it then.

Several minutes later, I was on the sofa watching “The Proud Family” as I ate a large bowl of Froot Loops. In the meantime, Smokey was quietly lying across my feet while sleeping. I was finishing my cereal when my doorbell rang.

I hurriedly snatched my feet from under Smokey and stood up to answer the door, but first, I looked out of the peephole. It was my neighbor from across the hall. I made sure that my chain latch was across the door before I slowly turned the doorknob.

“Uh, hi. I’m lookin’ for a LaNaya Winston?”, he replied while glancing at a white envelope he was holding.

When I gave him a questioning look, he quickly held it up.

“I received some of her mail by mistake and the address to this apartment is on the envelope.”, he faintly smiled while watching me.

It suddenly hit me that my hair was in a mess. I couldn’t help from placing one of my hands on top of my head while looking downward out of embarrassment. “That would be me.”, I quietly stated after quickly glancing back up at him.

“Oh, okay. Well here you go. By the way, I’m your neighbor, Nicholas. I never did formerly introduce myself.”, he grinned while extending his hand to shake mine.

I proceeded to give him a weak handshake. “Nice to meet you, Nicholas.”

“You can call me Nick for short if you want to.”, he grinned. And boy was his grin adorable.

“Aight. Well thanks for bringin’ my mail to me, Nick. Buh bye.”

“Bye.”

After shutting the door, I opened the envelope and realized that it was an invitation from my Aunty Gina for the Valentine’s Day Dance for Singles that her church would be holding on tonight. I remembered ma telling me about this a few weeks ago. Needless to say, I tore the mail up and threw it in the wastebasket that was next to my front door.

[SexySexyDru]

That's the bomb CC! You know I been waitin' for some good fan fic! ;D