Post by BleekerBOP on Mar 23, 2006 11:44:54 GMT -5
Pulling up to Chris' street I had no idea what I was going to say to him....I honestly had
no idea what the ---- I was thinking even running out of my house without any sense of a
plan. I turned off my lights and sat listening to the radio wondering what he was he doing,
how he felt about me.....if he still even loved me. Sitting back in my seat I looked up at
the sky through my sunroof and replayed todays events in my head over and over again.
I couldn't believe my father would do something like this to me....my own father. I hadn't
realized that I had been sitting on this corner for like two hours, which to someone
observing me would be extremely suspect. As I was about to turn on my car I heard a
tapping on my window that scared the ---- out of me...
"Chris?"
He hadn't changed much, he was a little taller and more mature looking. He stepped back
from the car so I could get out and looked at me in disbelief....I couldn't believe I stayed
away from him for so long...
"Tay what are you doing here?"
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"What are u talkin-"
"My father, why didn't you tell me that night what he was making you do?"
"Because who am I to mess up your future Tay"
"Shouldn't that be my decision Chris"
"Yes it should be Tay but damn..."
"This has been the worst year of my life because of people making decisions for me"
"If you came here to argue with me over this I really don't wanna hear it. Your not the only one in the world with ----ing problems Tay"
"I understand that Chris but-"
"But nothing. You think this hasn't been hard for me? You think loving someone I couldn't even see for the past year was easy for me?"
"I'm sure you weren't going through-"
"Bull----! what are you going to say....nobody has it as bad as you? nobody can possibly feel as tormented as you. Stop the pity ----. As much as you dislike your parents for the snob ---- sometimes you can be just as bad"
What the ---- was he talking about?
"I am not a snob!"
"Oh yeah?! Remember the last ----ing thing you said to me.....that I was going to be a ----ing loser? I'm not going to be a loser Tay and I knew you always had some of the same thoughts about me as your parents"
"I was mad and was just trying to hurt you as much as you were hurting me! Damnit Chris I love you"
"I love you too and thats why I let you go! I wasn't trying to hurt you Tay and you should know I would never do anything to intentionally hurt you! What would you have done if you found out your dad gave me that choice and I would have chosen to stay with you and ---- up your chances at going to spellman?"
I couldn't even answer him.....as much as I hate to admit it I would probably find that
choice to be somewhat selfish....but love would conquer it damnit...I just want to love him
"See ma, we weren't supposed to be together...."
"You loved me so much you let me go?"
The hurt in his eyes was heart breaking....this time apart really did take its toll on the both of us, it was apparent in his eyes...I was trying to understand this...
"I let you go on faith......praying that one day you would come back to me and we could love each other on our own terms Tay....."
"Well I'm back Chris.....and I'm loving you on my own terms....and your meant for me.....am I meant for you ?"
"You came back to me after a year....I know your meant for me stupid"
I laughed and ran into his arms....my place where nothing could harm me.....
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no idea what the ---- I was thinking even running out of my house without any sense of a
plan. I turned off my lights and sat listening to the radio wondering what he was he doing,
how he felt about me.....if he still even loved me. Sitting back in my seat I looked up at
the sky through my sunroof and replayed todays events in my head over and over again.
I couldn't believe my father would do something like this to me....my own father. I hadn't
realized that I had been sitting on this corner for like two hours, which to someone
observing me would be extremely suspect. As I was about to turn on my car I heard a
tapping on my window that scared the ---- out of me...
"Chris?"
He hadn't changed much, he was a little taller and more mature looking. He stepped back
from the car so I could get out and looked at me in disbelief....I couldn't believe I stayed
away from him for so long...
"Tay what are you doing here?"
"Why didn't you tell me?"
"What are u talkin-"
"My father, why didn't you tell me that night what he was making you do?"
"Because who am I to mess up your future Tay"
"Shouldn't that be my decision Chris"
"Yes it should be Tay but damn..."
"This has been the worst year of my life because of people making decisions for me"
"If you came here to argue with me over this I really don't wanna hear it. Your not the only one in the world with ----ing problems Tay"
"I understand that Chris but-"
"But nothing. You think this hasn't been hard for me? You think loving someone I couldn't even see for the past year was easy for me?"
"I'm sure you weren't going through-"
"Bull----! what are you going to say....nobody has it as bad as you? nobody can possibly feel as tormented as you. Stop the pity ----. As much as you dislike your parents for the snob ---- sometimes you can be just as bad"
What the ---- was he talking about?
"I am not a snob!"
"Oh yeah?! Remember the last ----ing thing you said to me.....that I was going to be a ----ing loser? I'm not going to be a loser Tay and I knew you always had some of the same thoughts about me as your parents"
"I was mad and was just trying to hurt you as much as you were hurting me! Damnit Chris I love you"
"I love you too and thats why I let you go! I wasn't trying to hurt you Tay and you should know I would never do anything to intentionally hurt you! What would you have done if you found out your dad gave me that choice and I would have chosen to stay with you and ---- up your chances at going to spellman?"
I couldn't even answer him.....as much as I hate to admit it I would probably find that
choice to be somewhat selfish....but love would conquer it damnit...I just want to love him
"See ma, we weren't supposed to be together...."
"You loved me so much you let me go?"
The hurt in his eyes was heart breaking....this time apart really did take its toll on the both of us, it was apparent in his eyes...I was trying to understand this...
"I let you go on faith......praying that one day you would come back to me and we could love each other on our own terms Tay....."
"Well I'm back Chris.....and I'm loving you on my own terms....and your meant for me.....am I meant for you ?"
"You came back to me after a year....I know your meant for me stupid"
I laughed and ran into his arms....my place where nothing could harm me.....
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