Post by BleekerBOP on Mar 10, 2006 22:07:12 GMT -5
All I did for the last couple of days was spend time with
Shalin and tell her about whats been going on at
home...it felt weird telling her as much as I did....but it
wasn't like a bad weird...more like a weight was lifted
that I hadn't been rid of since me and her fell out.
"That day I was watching through my window....I thought he was going to kill you Chris..."
"It felt like he was....I caught him a couple of times"
"Sure u did baby lol"
"lol ohhh you got jokes now huh"
"Nah not at all lol"
I looked at her and smiled, I didn't realize how much I
missed her. I kissed her quickly on her lips and held her
hand...
"So I mean, what are you gonna do? You gotta get him out of that house."
"I don't know I mean I gotta get him out some how.."
"What about the cops?"
"That'll just piss him off...I need him out for good, not just for a night to come back and raise hell ma"
"Well you know me and everybody are still here for you...but there is something you still need to do and you know what that is.."
I knew what I had to do... I was just putting it off...I
had to talk to my mom and see where she was mentally
about everything that was going on....I left Shalin a few
minutes later and walked into my moms office...I
watched her type up stuff for work and couldnt believe
that our relationship had gotten to this level...I gently
tapped on her door...
"Mommy..."
I looked at her as she slowly turned to me and her
eyes watered...I hadn't spoken to my mom in a long
time and didn't think it was effecting her as much as it
was effecting me...I guess it was.
"Chris I'm sorry....I shouldn't have brought him back in here....I was so we-"
"No you weren't and I apologize for saying that to you....but ma we gotta get him out now"
"I'll talk to him tonight and handle it.....I need to take responsibility for bringin him in here...I brought him here, I take him out of here. Do you understand me?"
"Ma you know he's not gonna leave easily....if he does something i'm gonna-"
"Your gonna sit back and let me handle it Chris...."
I put my head down as I agreed with my mother. I
turned to walk out when she pulled me into a hug....a
hug only a mother could give....I broke away and told
went to my room...I wish I would have held on
longer....I laid on my bed and waited for him to come
home...I called Shalin and told her what my mother said
and to keep an eye on the house when he came
home...If anything happened and I couldn't get
help...she would be my safety....my crutch...she truly
was my stability. I paced back and forth and waited I
ran to the window as I heard a car pull up and it was
him...it was time
Shalin and tell her about whats been going on at
home...it felt weird telling her as much as I did....but it
wasn't like a bad weird...more like a weight was lifted
that I hadn't been rid of since me and her fell out.
"That day I was watching through my window....I thought he was going to kill you Chris..."
"It felt like he was....I caught him a couple of times"
"Sure u did baby lol"
"lol ohhh you got jokes now huh"
"Nah not at all lol"
I looked at her and smiled, I didn't realize how much I
missed her. I kissed her quickly on her lips and held her
hand...
"So I mean, what are you gonna do? You gotta get him out of that house."
"I don't know I mean I gotta get him out some how.."
"What about the cops?"
"That'll just piss him off...I need him out for good, not just for a night to come back and raise hell ma"
"Well you know me and everybody are still here for you...but there is something you still need to do and you know what that is.."
I knew what I had to do... I was just putting it off...I
had to talk to my mom and see where she was mentally
about everything that was going on....I left Shalin a few
minutes later and walked into my moms office...I
watched her type up stuff for work and couldnt believe
that our relationship had gotten to this level...I gently
tapped on her door...
"Mommy..."
I looked at her as she slowly turned to me and her
eyes watered...I hadn't spoken to my mom in a long
time and didn't think it was effecting her as much as it
was effecting me...I guess it was.
"Chris I'm sorry....I shouldn't have brought him back in here....I was so we-"
"No you weren't and I apologize for saying that to you....but ma we gotta get him out now"
"I'll talk to him tonight and handle it.....I need to take responsibility for bringin him in here...I brought him here, I take him out of here. Do you understand me?"
"Ma you know he's not gonna leave easily....if he does something i'm gonna-"
"Your gonna sit back and let me handle it Chris...."
I put my head down as I agreed with my mother. I
turned to walk out when she pulled me into a hug....a
hug only a mother could give....I broke away and told
went to my room...I wish I would have held on
longer....I laid on my bed and waited for him to come
home...I called Shalin and told her what my mother said
and to keep an eye on the house when he came
home...If anything happened and I couldn't get
help...she would be my safety....my crutch...she truly
was my stability. I paced back and forth and waited I
ran to the window as I heard a car pull up and it was
him...it was time
