Post by JUCIEE GUDNESS FROM DA HOOD on Jun 16, 2004 16:49:29 GMT -5
“ I can’t believe that I’m about to go through with this!” Liah whispered to herself. She was standing in one of the backrooms of the church, while her soon to be mother-in-law/ beautician was putting the finishing touches on her hair. Liah begin thinking about all the years that she and her soon to be husband Bryant had shared. Five years was a long time to be together and she thought that she was in love with him, but she was wrong.
All the years that we have shared with each other, the good times as well as the bad have let me know that I love him, but I’m not in love with him. I don’t think that I can go through with this, especially when I know in my heart that he’s not the one that I want to live the rest of my life with. I love him, but I’m not in love with him. Liah was so deep in thought that she hadn’t realized that her matron of honor who was her sister and Bryant’s sis, Tasha were the only ones in the room with her.
“ Girl, you better enjoy yourself tonight, because this is your last night of freedom. Oh I forgot that was last night, you on lock down from now on!!” Tasha joked but Liah didn’t think that it was funny, she was already having jitters and this Tasha didn’t help much.
“ Tasha, leave her alone, can’t you see she’s already nervous as it is?” Liah’s sister Chell replied “ Now if you don’t mind would you please leave so that me and my sister can have some sister time before the wedding?” As soon as Tasha left the room Chell asked “ Hey girl are you okay, because you sure don’t look like it?”
“Yeah, I’m fine.” Liah lied through her teeth, how could she tell her sister that she didn’t want to get married to the one man that she had longed for all her life.
“ Well I’m going to let you get your self together, I’ll be outside just stick your head out the door when you are ready to start.” She smiled as she walked out the door.
She was right I did need a few minutes to regroup and think about all that had taken place. All that the family saw was the façade of happiness that I had put on for the past two weeks.
Two weeks earlier:
“ No you are not going back to school to be a doctor. I hardly ever got time to see you while you were getting your nursing degree!” Bryant shouted in the kitchen where I was preparing dinner. “ Why? Who died and made you God?” I sarcastically replied. “ Look Liah, it was hard enough spending time with you while you were in nursing school, I mean you were stressed, and irritable. Come on why can’t you just keep the degree that you have and start working?” “Because that’s not what I want to do!!” I huffed He makes me so damn sick. Who the hell does he think I am, Joan Cleaver? I am not about to stay home and fix meals all day.
The bells of the church chiming brought me out of my daydream and it was then that I realized that I had to do something so I grabbed the stationary and wrote a letter, I then looked in my sister’s coat pocket and grabbed her keys and headed out the door.