Post by Sweet Meat aka CC on Aug 2, 2006 13:58:20 GMT -5
Four days and counting of not talking to or seeing Janeka and it was beginning to take its toll on me.
Although my boys were downstairs in my living room having the time of their lives with a few females they brought over, I just wasn’t in the mood to kick it with any of them. That’s when I decided that I was going to see my girl to see if we could give our relationship one last shot before I give up on what we have.
When I got downstairs, everybody was making their way out back to the jacuzzi.
“Yo, man! Where you goin’? The party’s JUST gettin’ started!” My boy, Tee, had his arm wrapped around a half-naked female while grinning at me.
“I got somethin’ to take care of,” I mumbled as I headed to the front door.
“Man, quit thinkin’ ‘bout that broad and c’mon outside with us!”
“Fuck you, nigga!,” I snapped before slamming the door shut behind me.
About a half-hour later when I walked into the house, it was completely dark. I threw my keys on the glass coffee table right after walking into the den before making my way upstairs. Since it was close to midnight, I was pretty sure that Neka had long fell asleep.
When I reached the bedroom, I quietly opened the door, and sure enough Neka was sound asleep in the middle of our bed dressed in one of my throwback jerseys as the tv loudly played an episode of “Married With Children”. I grabbed the remote that was beside her and muted the sound.
“Neka,” I whispered while gently shaking her shoulder. The first time she didn’t answer me. However, when I went to shake her again, she immediately sat up with a frightened look on her face before realizing it was me. She quickly reached over on her nightstand to turn the lamp on. Immediately afterwards, she jumped into my lap and wrapped her arms and legs around me and began to weep while burying her face into my neck.
I placed a soft kiss on her cheek while gently rubbing her back. We didn’t say anything for the next few minutes. I patiently waited until Neka regained her composure.
“I was beginning to think that you really wasn’t comin’ back,” she sniffed as she climbed off my lap and sat down next to me.
“I juss needed some time to think and clear my head before comin’ back so we could talk. Neka I REALLY need for you to talk to me and tell me what’s botherin’ you.”
She lowered her head and took a deep sigh while closing her eyes before speaking. “Well, it’s DEFINITELY not you, yourself; but there are some things that I need to tell you.” She lifted her head back up and turned to look at me. “But please don’t think I’m crazy.”
The desperate look on her face worried me. I took both of her hands into mine as I faced her. “Neka, I may think you’re a lil’ SILLY at times but why would you say that I would think you’re crazy?”
“Because there’s a lot about me that you DON’T know,” she nearly whispered while standing up and facing me.
By the time she had finished telling me about everything including seeing a therapist close to an hour later, the only thing I could do was pull her back into my arms while crying along with her. I even agreed to go with her to her next appointment. We also made a promise to each other that we wouldn’t keep any secrets from one another no matter how painful or shameful they may be.
Although my boys were downstairs in my living room having the time of their lives with a few females they brought over, I just wasn’t in the mood to kick it with any of them. That’s when I decided that I was going to see my girl to see if we could give our relationship one last shot before I give up on what we have.
When I got downstairs, everybody was making their way out back to the jacuzzi.
“Yo, man! Where you goin’? The party’s JUST gettin’ started!” My boy, Tee, had his arm wrapped around a half-naked female while grinning at me.
“I got somethin’ to take care of,” I mumbled as I headed to the front door.
“Man, quit thinkin’ ‘bout that broad and c’mon outside with us!”
“Fuck you, nigga!,” I snapped before slamming the door shut behind me.
About a half-hour later when I walked into the house, it was completely dark. I threw my keys on the glass coffee table right after walking into the den before making my way upstairs. Since it was close to midnight, I was pretty sure that Neka had long fell asleep.
When I reached the bedroom, I quietly opened the door, and sure enough Neka was sound asleep in the middle of our bed dressed in one of my throwback jerseys as the tv loudly played an episode of “Married With Children”. I grabbed the remote that was beside her and muted the sound.
“Neka,” I whispered while gently shaking her shoulder. The first time she didn’t answer me. However, when I went to shake her again, she immediately sat up with a frightened look on her face before realizing it was me. She quickly reached over on her nightstand to turn the lamp on. Immediately afterwards, she jumped into my lap and wrapped her arms and legs around me and began to weep while burying her face into my neck.
I placed a soft kiss on her cheek while gently rubbing her back. We didn’t say anything for the next few minutes. I patiently waited until Neka regained her composure.
“I was beginning to think that you really wasn’t comin’ back,” she sniffed as she climbed off my lap and sat down next to me.
“I juss needed some time to think and clear my head before comin’ back so we could talk. Neka I REALLY need for you to talk to me and tell me what’s botherin’ you.”
She lowered her head and took a deep sigh while closing her eyes before speaking. “Well, it’s DEFINITELY not you, yourself; but there are some things that I need to tell you.” She lifted her head back up and turned to look at me. “But please don’t think I’m crazy.”
The desperate look on her face worried me. I took both of her hands into mine as I faced her. “Neka, I may think you’re a lil’ SILLY at times but why would you say that I would think you’re crazy?”
“Because there’s a lot about me that you DON’T know,” she nearly whispered while standing up and facing me.
By the time she had finished telling me about everything including seeing a therapist close to an hour later, the only thing I could do was pull her back into my arms while crying along with her. I even agreed to go with her to her next appointment. We also made a promise to each other that we wouldn’t keep any secrets from one another no matter how painful or shameful they may be.
[glow=yellow,1,200]***Part 5 Comin' Soon***[/glow]
As usual, I've come down with writer's block on this one; I know what I wanna come next, but I'm juss havin' trouble with it comin' outta this big noggin of mine as far as how to type it down and stuff. ::sigh:: 
