Post by BleekerBOP on Mar 5, 2006 13:20:29 GMT -5
Me and Shalin have been kickin it now for about two months and things couldn't be better.
I haven't really been thinking about things like I used to in a long time and everythings
seems to be finally looking up for me. My mom has been acting really happy though, I
mean don't get me wrong I'm happy if shes happy but it's kinda odd. I noticed that i've
been getting more and more presents from my dad too, at least 3 of 'em a week and its
starting to get annoying. I just pack 'em up in the basement and keep it moving. I don't
have time for him and his shit. Maybe as I get older i'll forgive him but for right now I
don't see it in the cards at all.
"Chris come here for a minute sweetie"
"Comin ma"
Walking into my mom's room I see her running around getting dressed, the smell of her
perfume is all over and she's trying to put in a pair of earrings that look like they cost a
whole lot of money, the type of money my mom wouldn't spend on jewelry.
"How do I look?"
"Beautiful as always...umm mom where are you going?"
"Umm just out to dinner, nothing special"
I looked into my mom's eyes when she spoke to me, I did it with everybody actually. I
don't know but it's like I don't believe anything anyone says if i'm not looking them in the
eye...they are the window to your soul.
"With who?"
"Ohh just an old friend honey, so you think I look alright?"
"lol yeah mom your beautiful, relax"
She finally got herself together and repeatedly asked me if she looked ok. I walked her to
the car and noticed she was not only wearing new earrings but a new coat and purse.
Don't get me wrong I don't care if my mom spoils herself, and it's not like i'm tracking
what she buys but damn she doesn't go to the mall EVER because she hates it. I mean the
only other way she could be getting such expensive stuff is if she was......HELL NO she
wouldn't be accepting the gifts my dad was sending, she gave the stuff away....she
wouldn't take his stuff I mean...nah i'm buggin out...I wave at her as she drives down the
street and can't shake the feeling that something is going on that I seriously don't want.
She has been a little different lately I mean, late night meetings, new jewelery and
clothes..sometimes I hear her on the phone late at night giggling like a little
kid....NO...she wouldn't let him back in our lives...not after what he put us through but
fuck she was wearing new shit and I mean she looked good but it wasn't her style like...it
was more like....
Flashback
I laid in the bed next to my mommy and tried to make her feel better. Daddy got really
mad and hit her in her face and now she's upset. I thought he only hit me like that but
now I see he hits mommy too. I get a wet towel and wipe mommys face so she would feel
better.
"Thank you baby"
I just look at her and nod my head, I sat with her for hours before my daddy came home.
He had flowers and a present for her so she would feel better and a new toy for me. he
kissed mommy and told her he was sorry and didn't mean to hurt her feelings. She said it
was okay and she loved him. She said it was ok.......
End Flashback
I ran next door to Shalin's house and climbed up to her window....I'm not going to start
thinking again I've been doing good I'm not gonna let this shit start again. I tap on her
window and soon I see that smile of hers and she lets me in.
"You know Chris I have a door...and it has a knocker and a bell lol"
"Yeah and you have a psycho father too"
"True indeed...good thinkin on the window lol"
"Mmm-hmm, what you doin?"
"Nothin I was about to call you, I missed u"
"I missed u too"
Our lips locked in a small passionate kiss and then we sat on her bed and talked for a little
while and of course I told her what I was thinking about, I needed somebody's input on it
because I was going crazy...
"It couldn't be your father Chris, maybe she's seeing somebody at her job"
"I don't think so duckie I mean shes always talking about how all the guys at her firm are a$$holes and how she would never mix business and pleasure.....I mean damn what if it is him?"
There was really nothing either of us could say, just the thought of seeing my father again
made every scar he left on my ache and my mind jumble. She couldn't let him back in our
lives after all this time. I know she still loved him but she couldn't do that to us, we've
come too far for her to let him come back in now. I held Shalin as I heard her whisper she
loved me before she drifted off to sleep....leaving me to my thoughts.
Feedback and Comments please! tankies
I haven't really been thinking about things like I used to in a long time and everythings
seems to be finally looking up for me. My mom has been acting really happy though, I
mean don't get me wrong I'm happy if shes happy but it's kinda odd. I noticed that i've
been getting more and more presents from my dad too, at least 3 of 'em a week and its
starting to get annoying. I just pack 'em up in the basement and keep it moving. I don't
have time for him and his shit. Maybe as I get older i'll forgive him but for right now I
don't see it in the cards at all.
"Chris come here for a minute sweetie"
"Comin ma"
Walking into my mom's room I see her running around getting dressed, the smell of her
perfume is all over and she's trying to put in a pair of earrings that look like they cost a
whole lot of money, the type of money my mom wouldn't spend on jewelry.
"How do I look?"
"Beautiful as always...umm mom where are you going?"
"Umm just out to dinner, nothing special"
I looked into my mom's eyes when she spoke to me, I did it with everybody actually. I
don't know but it's like I don't believe anything anyone says if i'm not looking them in the
eye...they are the window to your soul.
"With who?"
"Ohh just an old friend honey, so you think I look alright?"
"lol yeah mom your beautiful, relax"
She finally got herself together and repeatedly asked me if she looked ok. I walked her to
the car and noticed she was not only wearing new earrings but a new coat and purse.
Don't get me wrong I don't care if my mom spoils herself, and it's not like i'm tracking
what she buys but damn she doesn't go to the mall EVER because she hates it. I mean the
only other way she could be getting such expensive stuff is if she was......HELL NO she
wouldn't be accepting the gifts my dad was sending, she gave the stuff away....she
wouldn't take his stuff I mean...nah i'm buggin out...I wave at her as she drives down the
street and can't shake the feeling that something is going on that I seriously don't want.
She has been a little different lately I mean, late night meetings, new jewelery and
clothes..sometimes I hear her on the phone late at night giggling like a little
kid....NO...she wouldn't let him back in our lives...not after what he put us through but
fuck she was wearing new shit and I mean she looked good but it wasn't her style like...it
was more like....
Flashback
I laid in the bed next to my mommy and tried to make her feel better. Daddy got really
mad and hit her in her face and now she's upset. I thought he only hit me like that but
now I see he hits mommy too. I get a wet towel and wipe mommys face so she would feel
better.
"Thank you baby"
I just look at her and nod my head, I sat with her for hours before my daddy came home.
He had flowers and a present for her so she would feel better and a new toy for me. he
kissed mommy and told her he was sorry and didn't mean to hurt her feelings. She said it
was okay and she loved him. She said it was ok.......
End Flashback
I ran next door to Shalin's house and climbed up to her window....I'm not going to start
thinking again I've been doing good I'm not gonna let this shit start again. I tap on her
window and soon I see that smile of hers and she lets me in.
"You know Chris I have a door...and it has a knocker and a bell lol"
"Yeah and you have a psycho father too"
"True indeed...good thinkin on the window lol"
"Mmm-hmm, what you doin?"
"Nothin I was about to call you, I missed u"
"I missed u too"
Our lips locked in a small passionate kiss and then we sat on her bed and talked for a little
while and of course I told her what I was thinking about, I needed somebody's input on it
because I was going crazy...
"It couldn't be your father Chris, maybe she's seeing somebody at her job"
"I don't think so duckie I mean shes always talking about how all the guys at her firm are a$$holes and how she would never mix business and pleasure.....I mean damn what if it is him?"
There was really nothing either of us could say, just the thought of seeing my father again
made every scar he left on my ache and my mind jumble. She couldn't let him back in our
lives after all this time. I know she still loved him but she couldn't do that to us, we've
come too far for her to let him come back in now. I held Shalin as I heard her whisper she
loved me before she drifted off to sleep....leaving me to my thoughts.
Feedback and Comments please! tankies
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