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Post by Sweet Meat aka CC on Jul 13, 2004 21:58:06 GMT -5
Karmyn's Song: Dear Youby Syleena Johnson [Verse 1] It's crazy how the time goes by And you faithfully everyday been by my side Even through our hardest times When I wouldn't talk to you Or try to see your point of view So I'm writing you to let you know That your patience and your graciousness Gave me strength to help me grow And I appreciate the things that you've done Because your love has taught me how to be a better woman [Chorus] And you, oh you have always been there for me Even provided for me And I, oh I don't know what I'd do without you ’Cause I can't be without you [Verse 2] And I'm sorry I turned my back on you And holding you responsible for me not loving you And I know I was wrong to feel that way But you were the closest one to me to blame So I'm writing you to let you know That I was the only one responsible For my pain and my worries The times when I felt worthless You still lifted my burdens and I'm so grateful [Chorus] [Bridge] I’m writing to tell you, can't be without you Won’t place none above you, can't be without you I really do love you, can't be without you I appreciate you and all that you do [Chorus x3][/color] Marlon's Song: Brand Newby Next [Intro] Yo, let me start off by first apologizing Girl you think I take you for granted But um, I’m here to take it back [Chorus] Can we pull back a minute and make believe That I don't know you and you don’t know me Darling let's pretend this old school love is brand new Let me explore the places I've already been Just tell me where and I'll kiss it again Darling let's pretend this old school love is brand new [Verse 1] I know I shouldn't have to ask But it seems that I've relaxed And I'm getting the feeling that It's time I take it back Remember late night escapes In the car calling out my name You being scared when your friend was late Then being cool when it finally came Those were the days [Chorus] [Verse 2] Way back when hickies were the thing You wore bloomers not that sexy g-string And getting blue balls was a daily thing But it was alright with me To when that very first time went down How you moaned when I went down You were the one I had no doubt We need to get that back right now Cause those were the days [Chorus] [Bridge] We're still here (here) Cause we conquered every fear (every fear) Our fire burns inside like yesteryear My baby since back in the day We knew it would be us Holding on to that first crush Proud to say today is what it was So lets keep on giving this oldie but goodie love [Chorus X2] Back Like Cadillacs and hubcaps Back Like leaving letters in your knapsack Back Like Jellies and Pro-Keds Back to girl when we first met Back To when Mike had the glove on Back To when our love was so strong Back To the days I know you miss I’ll get back I promise this Take it back [Chorus][/color][/b][/i]
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Post by Sweet Meat aka CC on Jul 13, 2004 22:03:20 GMT -5
The next morning at 6:00 when Marlon woke up to get ready to fly to DC to do his comedy show for the next three nights, he decided to call Shawn up since it was after 9:00 on the east coast.
"Hello?", Shawn groggily answered after rolling over to grab the phone from the nightstand.
"W'sup, man? Did I wake you?", Marlon asked.
"No...I juss like soundin' like sh!t for the hell of it."
"So you didn't get none this mornin', huh?", Marlon joked.
"Shut the hell up, man.", Shawn chuckled. "Anyway, how ya been? We saw your skinny ass on tv last night."
"Whateva! But anyway, I'm good. How's Nessa and the kids?"
"They're aight. She's gone to her weekly hair appointment or somethin' after droppin' them off at school."
"That's coo'. So ummmm...I was callin' to let you know that I'll prolly come up to the NY to chill out with you and Nessa after I leave DC on Sunday night if that's coo' with yall."
"Yeah, man. That's coo'. I'm sure she won't mind."
"Thanks."
"No problem. Sooooo...if you happen to see Karm, do you think she'll finally be able to forgive you?"
"I'ono. I was up tossin' and turnin' all night about it, but I think I'ma juss stop tryna get in contact with her. She's made it obvious after all of this time that she doesn't wanna see me. So I guess that's why I'ma juss come hang out with yall for a lil' rest and relaxation.", Marlon sadly sighed while rubbing his temple with his free hand as he sat up on the side of the bed.
"Well, like I said, it's no prob to hang out with us, baby bro."
"Thanks. I'll call ya up lata when my flight lands."
"Aight. See ya."
"Lata."
After their call ended, Marlon stood up and stretched before heading to the bathroom to take a shower since he would have to leave for the airport within the next 30 minutes. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I was sitting at my desk going over some figures for a client when my phone began to ring.
"Stevenson's CPA Service. How may I help you."
"Ms. Stevenson? This is the school nurse callin' about Derek. He's injured his foot in gym class a few minutes ago and needs to be picked up. I think it may be a sprain."
"Oh okay. Thank you for calling me. I'll be there just as soon as I can."
"You're welcome. Bye."
"Bye."
When I hung up my phone, I quickly grabbed my purse and keys because if there was one thing that I always worried about, whether it was a big or small problem, was my baby. Speaking of baby, I can't help but think about the time that a new addition was added to my extended family... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Fall 1989... "Karm! I need to talk to you!", Vanessa deeply sighed on Thanksgiving morning when we woke up.
"What's wrong?", I yawned as I sat up in my bed while rubbing my eyes.
"Shawn and I were up until late last night talkin' on the phone and we agreed that we have to tell our parents somethin' today."
"Huh?", I asked as I put my glasses on. As soon as I had them on my face, I looked over at Vanessa and saw that she was crying.
"What's the matter?!", I asked while quickly jumping up from my bed. I ran over to hers to sit down.
"If I tell you, you have to PROMISE not to say anything and if you’re asked about it later, you gotta act like you don't know anything when we tell all of yall our news today.", she whispered while wiping away at her tears. However, I already knew what she was about to say.
"Vanessa? You're not...?", I started before she nodded her head.
I couldn't do anything but cover up my mouth with one of my hands out of disbelief while staring at her. After a few seconds of silence, I spoke. "How far along are you? When did you find out? What did Shawn say?"
"I'm almost four months...I've known for a while now after I got Dori's aunt to act as my guardian at the health department, and Shawn's not too happy about it. It was some news for me to drop on him after he came home for his break last night.", she sniffed.
"What do you mean he's not happy about it? Ain't he the one that's partly responsible?", I snapped while glaring at her.
"I know! I know!", she huffed with a roll of her eyes. "But after we talked, he said that he's willin' to do whateva he can to help me and the baby out."
"Wait a minute! How have you been gettin' past Pam all of this time?! You know how she keeps up with our periods!"
"I've been actin' like I use the pads she buys us since I know she keeps her eye on how often they’re used between us each month."
"Dag. Well, you know I'm here for you.", I replied as I reached out to hug her.
"Thanks."
"You're welcome." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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Post by Sweet Meat aka CC on Jul 13, 2004 22:06:46 GMT -5
Later on that afternoon while Daddy, Pam, Vanessa, Granny Jo, and I were in the middle of eating our Thanksgiving dinner, someone frantically rang our doorbell.
"Who in the world...?!", Daddy huffed as he and Pam stood up from the dining room table to go answer the door. That's when Vanessa and I quickly glanced at each other across the table . Granny Jo gave both of us a puzzled look before standing to her feet when we heard Mr. Wayans’ angry voice coming from the living room.
"Vanessaaaaaaaaaaaa, get in here right now!!!", Pam yelled.
She looked at me with a frightened look on her face as she slowly stood up and walked out of the room.
I wanted to get up to be with her, but since I knew I wasn't called along with her, I stayed in my chair while pushing my food around on my plate with my fork since I had now lost my appetite. I prayed that they didn't be too hard on her.
"Yes, momma?", she quietly asked after joining them.
"What's this about Mr. and Mrs. Wayans telling us that you and Shawn are having a baby?!", Pam angrily asked while everyone, with the exception of Shawn, glared at her.
No matter how hard Vanessa tried to speak, she couldn't. Instead, a flow of tears began to rush out of her eyes. When Shawn tried to walk over to her to comfort her, Pam angrily shoved him away.
"Stay away from her! You've already done enough damage!"
"You keep your hands off of my son! She's just as much to blame for this as he is!", Mrs. Wayans snapped as she quickly jumped in front of Shawn to get in Pam's face.
"Mr. Wayans, you betta get your wife!", Daddy warned as he quickly stood in front of Pam.
"Don't you tell me what the hell to do! You shoulda been doin' that with your daughter! If you had, she wouldn't be in the condition she's in now!", Mr. Wayans shouted.
"Now just a minute!", Granny Jo yelled as she stepped in front of Daddy to confront Mr. Wayans. "Your ass will not disrespect my son in HIS house!"
"And don't you go gettin' up in my husband's face!", Mrs. Wayans yelled back as she walked up to Granny Jo.
"Woman, I will hurt you!", Granny Jo warned.
Finally, Vanessa had had enough! "Stop it! Just stop it!", she shrieked while running upstairs to our room.
"Vanessa! Vanessa?!", Pam stated as she ran upstairs behind her.
"Look, when we've all had time to cool off, we can talk rationally. For now, I think you all need to leave.", Daddy announced while looking at Shawn and his parents.
"C'mon, son!", Mr. Wayans huffed as he grabbed Shawn by the back of his neck to walk him over to the front door with Mrs. Wayans following behind them.
"I'll be back down in a few minutes.", Daddy told Granny Jo as he went upstairs to join Pam and Vanessa.
When Granny Jo came back into the dining room, she noticed that I was crying.
"Everything's gonna be okay, baby.", she reassured me as she sat down next to me and pulled me into her arms.
Meanwhile, upstairs Pam was trying her best to stay calm while talking with Vanessa as Daddy sat on my bed watching them.
"Nessa, how many times have Pierre and I told you and Karm that we want the best for you two? Honey, bringin' a baby into the picture will only hurt your chances for makin' it out here in this world."
"I know, ma...and I'm sorry.", Vanessa cried as she leaned forward and buried her face in her hands.
"But the news of this baby isn't what even hurts me the most at the moment. It's the fact that you've been lyin' to us about havin' your period. I thought I could trust and depend on you to always do the right thing no matter what. And not only are you gonna have to suffer, but now Karmyn will too because it's gonna be hard for us to trust her."
"No, she doesn't have anything to do with this!", Vanessa snapped while sitting straight up. "She can't be punished for what's happened to me."
"I'm not sayin' that, but what I am saying is that because of your actions, we're gonna have to watch her even closer now because she may do the same thing if we don't. I'm sorry, sweetie, but I have to tell the truth. And to think, you only have one more year of school before headin' off to college. But because of this, now what, Nessa?"
"I'll think of somethin.", she sniffed while wiping away her tears.
"Well I hope you do because this is a responsibility that you're goin' to have to handle on your own." With that Pam stood up from the bed with Daddy walking out behind her. As soon as they came back downstairs to rejoin Granny Jo and I in the dining room, our doorbell began to ring again.
Pam was about to go answer it, but Daddy told her that he'd do it instead. When he opened the door, Shawn was standing in front of him.
"Yes?"
"Ummm...Mr. Stevenson, is it okay to speak with you and Mrs. Stevenson for a minute?"
For several seconds, Daddy stood glaring at Shawn before he unlocked the screen door so he could come in.
"Shawn, maybe we need to talk to both you and your parents.", Pam stated.
"I understand all that, but since it is my baby that Vanessa's carryin', I wanted to come over here to let you and Mr. Stevenson know that I love her with all of my heart. And if it means that I have to drop out of school, move back here to support her and the baby while workin' 10 jobs, then that's what I'll do.", he sighed with a shrug of his shoulders while looking back and forth at them.
"I appreciate your honesty, son.", Daddy finally replied after seeing the sincerity in Shawn's eyes.
"Thank you, sir."
"We still have some more things to talk about, so if you could ask your parents to come back over here in a lil' while, we'd appreciate it. We need to talk with both you and Vanessa.", Pam stated as she began to walk him over to the door.
"Yes ma'am. I'll tell them."... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The sound of a horn honking behind me jolted me back to the present time as I sat at a stoplight. When I glanced up at it, I saw that it was green. I quickly drove through the light as I approached the school. After finding a parking space, I hurriedly climbed out and headed for the main office. Once I had given the secretary my name and the reason why I was there, I waited for my baby to come down to the office.
"Hey, momma.", he stated as he was helped into the office by one of his friends named Rasaan.
"Hey, boo. Are you okay?", I anxiously asked while standing to my feet to take his backpack from him.
"Maaaa, c'mon.", he huffed out of embarrassment while Rasaan laughed.
"Well, I'm just askin'. Anyway, what happened?"
"I was playin' ball and went up for a jump shot like Jordan, but I fell as I came back down.", he sheepishly replied. "AND he missed the basket!", Rasaan chuckled.
"Man, shut up! Anyway, the nurse said that it's prolly sprained."
"Awww, well let's get my lil' man home.", I playfully cooed as I took his hand so we could leave.
"Lata, man!", DJ huffed with a shake of his head as he looked back at Rassan.
"Aight, dawg!", he replied with a head nod before turning around to head back to his class.
Once we were in my ride to head back home, DJ quickly changed my radio’s dial to a Hip-Hop/R&B station from the R&B Oldies one that I normally listen to.
"Uh oh, ma! There goes your song!", he huffed with a roll of his eyes the moment we heard Lloyd Banks' "Smile" playing.
"You betta know it, boo!", I chuckled although in the back of my mind, I thought back to the day that I was about to stop smiling thanks to Marlon... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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Post by Sweet Meat aka CC on Jul 13, 2004 22:10:32 GMT -5
Fall 1991... My first night at Howard, I couldn't wait to see Marlon! After Pam and Daddy left once I got settled in my apartment that I'd be sharing with Yasmine that was near the campus, I called Marlon up to let him know that I'd be dropping by his apartment that he and Twist were sharing to see him within the hour. However, after Twist answered, he told me that Marlon was hanging out in the dorm he used to live in with some of his friends.
After ending my call, I went to my room to change into something that was easy access since I hadn't "been with" Marlon since the past July 4th when he came home for a few days. Once I pulled my blue sundress down over my head and stepped into my slip-on sandals, I told Yasmine that I'd be back in a couple of hours and that if Pam or Daddy called to let them know that I was out with some old friends I caught up with.
"How you doin'?!”, a smooth male voice yelled out in my direction a few minutes later as I was walked across the campus. When I looked over to my left, I saw an extremely fine chocolate-dipped guy with a bright smile approaching me.
"Hi.", I bashfully smiled.
"You must be a new student.", he grinned while extending his hand to shake mine.
"Yeah.", I stated with a nod of my head as we shook hands.
"So what's your name?"
"Karmyn...Stevenson."
"Well, Karmyn...Stevenson.", he joked with a chuckle, "I'm Derek...Luke."
I couldn't help from giggling. "Nice to meet you."
"Thanks, you too. So could I show you around campus since you're new?"
"I'm sorry, but I'm goin' to have to decline your offer since I'm on my way to visit my boyfriend."
"You got a boyfriend already? I thought you said you were new here?", he chuckled.
"Well I am, but my boyfriend’s not; he came here last year. You might know him. Marlon Wayans?", I asked.
"Oh yeah, he used to stay in the dorm that I live in. I‘m headin‘ there now. Do you mind havin‘ some company?", he smiled.
"No, I don‘t mind.", I blushed.
"Okay.”
On our way there, we found out that we’d be taking a few classes together. I also found Derek to be very warm and friendly.
Once we reached the dorm about five minutes later, I saw Marlon sitting on the sofa in the lobby with some guys watching tv.
"Damn!", one of the guys sitting next to him stated when he saw me. I guess Marlon wasn't going to be the only one surprised by my new look. Since the last time we had seen each other, I had cut off all of my shoulder-length hair and had replaced my glasses with contact lenses. And I was wearing some colored lip gloss in a golden-brown shade.
"What?", Marlon asked before doing a double-take in my direction as I headed for him.
"Karm? What are you doin' here?", he asked as he quickly jumped up and headed over to me while glaring at Derek.
"I called you earlier, but Twist told me you were here, so I thought I'd drop in to see you. Aren't you happy to see me?", I asked with a bit of disappointment after noticing that he didn't hug me or anything.
"Yeah, c'mon and let's go.", he huffed while grabbing up to my hand.
"What's wrong with you?", I asked while we headed for his car.
"Nothin' except that I don't like the fact of you checkin' up on me like you juss did!", he replied with a suck of his teeth as he began to start his ride to drive us back to his place. Later on, I’d find out the real reason why he was so surprised by my unannounced visit.
"Oh, so you think I'm checkin' up on you?! n!gga, I'll take my ass on back home! Here I am thinkin' I'm doin' somethin' nice and you gonna be a ig'nant ass about it! Bye!", I angrily huffed as I opened his door to climb out. However, he grabbed up to my hand before I could place my sandal down on the pavement.
"Look, girl...I'm sorry, but I don't want none of those bustas I was around to get the wrong idea about you.", he sighed as he pulled me back inside the car.
"Yeah, right.", I huffed while making it a point not to look at him.
"C'mon, now. I said I'm sorry.", he pretended to pout while leaning his head over to look me in the face.
"I can't stand you!", I replied with a suck of my teeth before we both started laughing.
After reaching his place, we watched a movie followed up by doing our thing before he had to take me home so I would be there by the time Daddy and Pam called to say goodnight even though I knew that they were really gonna be calling to check up on me.
"I'll call you tomorrow.", he stated after walking me up the stairs to my apartment.
"Okay. Bye.", I smiled as I made my way inside after we shared a kiss goodnight. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Meanwhile, back at home Shawn and Vanessa were having their own set of problems.
"Shawn! Will you please come and help me out with your son?!", Vanessa huffed from the kitchen where she was trying to study and do some homework for her biology class since she was studying to become a doctor at NYU where she had been attending for the past year after going to summer school before her senior year so she'd graduate early. Shawn had transferred to NYU before Shawn, Jr. was born so that he could continue to study film.
"I'm busy!", he huffed from the sofa where he was laid out watching tv.
"So am I!", she yelled above Shawny who was 18 months old. At the moment, he kept whining while waiting for her to place him on her lap.
"Just ignore whateva he‘s doin‘; he'll stop in a minute!", Shawn replied with a suck of his teeth.
"C'mon.", she sighed as she picked the baby up into her lap.
She wanted to cry because things didn't seem to be going like she had dreamt with Shawn. She woke up at 5:30 every morning to get Shawny ready for pre-school before heading off to school herself. In the afternoon, she worked part-time at the university's library and in the evenings she came home with enough strength and energy to spend time with the baby before making dinner and then studying. In the meantime, the only thing Shawn did was wake up in enough time to go to school before going to his part-time job as a salesman for Radio Shack during the week while working there full-time on the weekends. When he wasn't working or going to school, he was laid out in his favorite place on the sofa or either hanging out with his friends.
Several minutes later as Vanessa continued to study while bouncing the baby on her knee, she heard Shawn walking into the kitchen. He headed for the refrigerator to get something to drink, but he couldn't do it without saying something after he saw Shawny sitting on her lap.
"That's why his lil' ass is so spoiled now! You constantly baby him and give in to his demands.", he sighed with a shake of his head.
"I guess like I keep doin' with your tired ass!", she snapped.
"What the hell is that supposed to mean?!", he angrily huffed while approaching her.
"It MEANS that it feels like I'm raisin' TWO babies instead of one!", she snapped once again. "I've just about had it with you! You don't help out with nothin' and then expect me to still get with you when your ass feels like it! Well guess what?! No more, Shawn!" With that, she stood up with the baby and stomped down the hallway to the bedroom slamming the door shut behind her. She then proceeded to lie down on her side of the bed while holding the baby close to her as she cried silent tears.
"Damn!", Shawn wearily sighed as he left the house to go get some advice from his father. In the meantime, after getting herself together, Vanessa decided to call Pam up.
Within two hours after getting some sought-after fatherly advice, Shawn returned home and made his way into the bedroom to talk with Vanessa. However while heading down the hallway, he walked by Shawny’s room and saw her placing him in his crib.
"Hey.", he quietly stated when Vanessa glanced over her shoulder after hearing him walking into the room.
"Hey.", she replied.
"Can I help with anything?", he asked as he walked up next to her.
"No thank you. I got it."
"Well, when you're finished, can we talk?"
"Yeah, I guess so.", she replied with a nod of her head while pulling the blanket up over Shawny.
"Okay. I'll be in our room.", he stated before walking out.
Once Vanessa pulled herself together while quickly brushing away some more tears that she began to shed, she headed for the bedroom. When she reached it, she saw Shawn sitting on the edge of his side of the bed with his head hanging downwards.
Without saying a word, she walked over to the bed and sat down next to him. Out of nowhere, he took a hold of her hand.
"Vanessa...I owe you an apology for how I've been actin'.", he stated as they gazed into each other's eyes. "You do more than your share around here and I need to stop playin' around and own up to my responsibilities."
"Thank you, and I accept your apology.", she quietly stated.
"I'm the one that needs to say thank you.", he replied as he proceeded to kneel down on one knee in front of her. "I dropped by your folks' house after talkin' with Pop for a while and your parents gave me their blessing to ask you to marry me."
"What?", she bashfully giggled.
"I want to know if you'll marry me. If you say yes, we can go ring shoppin' tomorrow. Ma already told me that she'd watch Shawny so we could go. So, Vanessa Armstrong, will you marry me? Or am I gonna have to beg for this too?", he winked with a sly grin.
"C'mere, you.", she smiled as she took her hands out of his and placed them around his neck before leaning forward to share a kiss with him. "Yes, I'll marry you. I love you, Shawn Wayans."
"And I love you too, Vanessa Wayans.", he winked before they called their parents up to share their good news with them. Afterwards, they decided to call it a night. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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Post by Sweet Meat aka CC on Jul 13, 2004 22:15:20 GMT -5
"Hey, sweetie.", Vanessa smiled after walking into the house a few hours later. She noticed Shawn eating a bowl of cereal on the sofa in front of the tv.
"Hey, with your fine ass! But I'm sorry to tell you that I'ma sweat out that new ‘do, so you wasted your money for nothin'!", he joked with a wink while looking up at her.
"Shut up, foo'!", she blushed as she began to sort through their mail while sitting down on the sofa next to him. "Any calls while I was out?"
"Just Marlon. He called not too long after you left to see if it was okay for him to come stay up here with us for a few days. I told him yeah since I didn't think you'd have a problem with it."
"Nah, I don't. But isn’t he gonna try to get in contact with Karm first to see if she'll finally want to see or listen to him?", Vanessa sighed with a shake of her head while looking over at Shawn.
"He said he thinks that after all of this time, maybe it's best to leave things the way they are.", Shawn replied in between eating with a shrug of his shoulders.
"Maybe I'll call Karm up in a lil' while to see if I can talk to her." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I was sitting at my desk trying to concentrate on my work once DJ and I arrived home, but he was talking a mile a minute about Marlon. Right before we arrived home, he heard that Marlon was coming to town for the next three nights to perform. Well, my baby really looks up to him ever since he watched him on tv about two years ago doing his stand-up routine. That's the day that DJ decided that he wanted to do the same thing. I strongly encourage him that I'll stand behind whatever it is that he wants to do in life, but I had him promise me that he'd get his high school diploma followed by a four-year degree in whatever it is he chooses to study first so he‘d have something to fall back on. DJ is always bragging that he's gonna be a graphic artist and put out THE hottest video game on the market in the near future.
But what my baby doesn’t know is that the birthday and Christmas gifts he has received from the time he was born comes from Marlon through Pam and Daddy or Vanessa; he thinks they come from his father who has never acknowledged him to this day although I receive child support payments from him each month. DJ has never asked to see him though. I guess being that it’s only been us two from the day I pushed him out into this cold and cruel world, he really doesn’t see the need for his father to be in the picture. However, I have told him that his father is alive but the reason that he’s never seen him is because he lives far away from us when the truth is his sorry ass only lives a couple of miles away. Even still somewhere deep down in my heart, I felt it was only right to name our son after him.
Anyway, Marlon has good intentions and I appreciate that he’s cared enough to go out of his way to do such a thoughtful thing like this for my son from the time he was born, but somewhere in my heart there’s still a bitterness that keeps me from wanting to see or hear from him again. He does send me a birthday card each year though and always writes on the inside of it that he hopes to hear from me. I always start out writing letters to him to apologize for not completely forgiving him until now, but then there’s that other side of me that wants to hold him responsible for the way my life ended up after my encounter with Derek. So instead of mailing my letters, I keep them in a fire-proof safe that stays hidden under my bed.
The sound of my home phone line ringing jolted me out of my thoughts.
"Hello?"
"Hey, Karm! How are you doin'?", Vanessa grinned.
"Oh, hey, girl! I'm doin' okay. How's everyone around your way?", I grinned back as I turned my attention to DJ to watch him playing his Play Station 2.
"They’re good. And how's my lil' man? Still gettin' those straight A's?"
"Yeah, but he got a lil' boo-boo today.", I giggled while cutting my eyes at him.
"Maaaaaa...stop it, already!", he huffed with a shake of his head while keeping his eyes glued to the tv.
"Anyway, how are my babies doin'? Gettin' taller and taller I know.", I teased.
"Yeah, girl! I can't believe that my oldest baby is already taller than I am and his voice has finally deepened!"
"Really! Well I guess from now on when I call you, if he answers, I'ma have to ask if I'm speakin' to him or Shawn!", I chuckled.
"Nah, you won't have to do that because his voice is DEEPER than Shawn's!", she laughed.
"Are you serious?!", I laughed back. "Oh my God! When was the last time we all saw each other again?"
"Girl, shut up! It hasn't been that long! It was just one of those overnight things that happened. But anyway, as for your niece...that girl is somethin' else! That's still my baby though.", Vanessa cooed.
"Awwwww, I know. So what's been goin' on up there? Are Pam and Daddy doin' okay?"
"Yeah, everybody's fine. But Shawn did get a call from a certain someone this mornin'."
Whenever Vanessa used the phrase "a certain someone", I always knew EXACTLY who she was talking about.
"Oh, I saw him on tv last night.", I sighed as I stood up to go into the kitchen so I could have some privacy.
"Yeah, we did too. Karmyn, you know that you two were meant for each other in spite of what he did. He still talks about you all the time. And besides, what happened between yall happened over 10 years ago. Don’t you think it’s about time you forgive him?"
"No, Vanessa! What happened may have been over 10 years ago, but I still feel the pain like it happened 10 minutes ago!", I sighed as I flopped down in a chair at the kitchen table. I proceeded to bury my head in one of my hands while clutching the phone to my ear. Although Vanessa was still talking, I began to think back to the end of my relationship with Marlon... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Winter 1991... For the past two months, Marlon and I have shared my bedroom after Yasmine said it was alright for him to stay overnight with us sometimes since her man, Trevor, stayed with her sometimes as well.
"Are you sure you can't come home for the weekend?", I asked Marlon as we lay in my bed in the early morning hours. I would be going home to visit Daddy since he had undergone minor surgery earlier in the week after hurting his knee on the job a few months back. Pam asked if Vanessa and I could stay with them just for the weekend to give her a break since Daddy was acting like a big baby according to her.
"I want to, sweetie, but I have to really study for these finals. You know if I come home, you won't get anything done and I sure as hell won't get anything done.", he smirked as he rolled over ending up on top of me.
"Anyway!", I giggled with a roll of my eyes. "I have to be gettin' up so I can get ready to leave in a lil' while."
"So I can't even get some for the road?", he laughed before nuzzling my neck.
"No! Now stop! I have to start packin' some last minute things, boy!", I huffed while managing to push him off of me.
"Well, I guess I'd betta gon' and get up so I can get ready for class. I'ma miss you.", he whispered while pulling me back into his arms for a moment after we both sat up on the side of the bed.
"And you know I'ma miss you too, but I'll call ya as soon as I can. And I'll be back on Sunday night so I can be back in time for my exams. I love you, man."
"I love you too, girl.", he laughed before we shared a quick kiss.
"Whew-weeee!", we both huffed at the same time while fanning the air.
"Time to hit up the Listerine bottle NOW!", he laughed as we both headed for the bathroom to get started on our day. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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Post by Sweet Meat aka CC on Jul 13, 2004 22:18:14 GMT -5
"So, Marlon? Which one of your girls you gonna be hittin' up now that your woman is gonna be outta town?", Derek smirked as they sat next to each other in their World Civilizations class.
"n!gga, why you all up in my business?", he huffed while glaring at him.
"Because, if you're not careful, you're gonna either get caught or maybe somebody will catch Karmyn's fine ass while she's away from you.", Derek smirked once again. It was no secret that he was feeling me and in his own subliminal way, he always tried to see how far he could go in letting Marlon know. They had even got into an almost-fight about it one time at basketball practice according to Trevor.
"Well, Mr. Bitch-Ass, you let me worry about that!", Marlon snapped as he slammed his textbook onto his desk once he had grabbed it from his backpack.
"Touchy, touchy!", Derek chuckled.
Marlon was about to reply, but when he saw one of his girls that he said was a "friend" named Deborah sashay into class in a pair of black leather pants and a tight-fitting gray turtleneck sweater, he decided to get up from his chair to go sit next to her. In the meantime, Derek shook his head while watching him. However, because he was working on getting in there with me, he never once brought to my attention what Marlon was doing behind my back each time we sat next to each other in Business Law. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "I can't believe we finally get to have some time to ourselves.", Deborah giggled as she and Marlon walked up to my apartment arm-in-arm later on that morning after their class since Twist had already reserved their apartment for his new girlfriend.
"Yeah, Yaz and Trevor are in class and my girl is gone out of town for the weekend.", he boldly grinned while putting his key in the lock. However, as soon as they walked inside, not only were they in for a surprise, but I was as well!
"Marlon! What the fvck are you doin'?! Ain't your skinny black ass supposed to be down at the computer lab?!", I yelled as I bolted up from the sofa where I was sitting. "And who the hell is she?!"
By this time I was marching across the room to confront the skank who was still holding onto his arm. Before either of them had time to react, I had reached out and grabbed up to some of her hair. When she went to swing at me, I proceeded to punch her repeatedly with my free hand while Marlon tried his best to break us up.
"I'ma fvck you up, bitch!", the ho yelled at me while Marlon picked her up by the waist to carry her outside.
"Yeah, yeah, yeah!!!", I loudly sighed while walking over to the door to come outside. However, Marlon quickly pushed me back while trying to keep her away. I really went off. "Now you gonna try to defend that ho?! Are you crazy?!!!", I shrieked as I began to hit him repeatedly with my balled up fists. He somehow managed to close the door while leaving my enemy outside. She eventually left.
"What are you doin' here?!", he yelled while separating himself from me using the armchair.
"Neva mind what I'm doin' here! What were you doin' here with that ho, Marlon?! And if your ass tell me that you were about to have her nasty ass in the bed that MY daddy bought then I'ma KILL your ass!", I screamed as I grabbed an encyclopedia that Yasmine had been using on the night before from the coffee table. I proceeded to throw it at Marlon, but he ducked just in time as it went whizzing across the room in his direction.
"No, girl! It's not what you think! She was just here to tutor me for my exams...that's all!", he lied while peeking over the top of the chair.
"You know what?! Here I am lovin' you with all that I have and this is the bullsh!t you pull on me!!! I hate the day I ever MET your ass!!! And I hate that Pam had to put off comin' to get me for a few hours until Granny Jo gets to their house to watch after Daddy!!! I got a good mind to go home on the bus!", I cried as I ran to my room. And that's exactly what I did after calling Pam up to explain what was going on. However, I made sure that I didn't let it slip that Marlon had a key to my place. Once our call ended, I grabbed my bags and left Marlon still hiding behind the chair as I left without turning back around. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ During the entire time that I spent at home over the weekend, I never once stepped outside of the house until it was time for me to go for fear of seeing any of Marlon's family. Even when Shawn came to visit Vanessa during the weekend, not once did I say anymore than "hey" or "goodbye" to him.
If I wasn't in the room talking with Daddy and/or Pam, I stayed in my old bedroom listening to nothing but sad music while thinking about Marlon. And would you believe that he had the NERVE to call me so we could talk?! But after Pam had a nice long talk with him, I didn't have to worry about him calling me anymore.
And on the last night that I spent there, Granny Jo came into the den to watch tv with me even though it was after 3:30 in the morning. She just happened to get up to go into the kitchen to get her a glass of juice when she saw the faint light of the tv playing from the hallway. When she came inside the den, she saw me balled up on the sofa crying while I watched "House Party" that Vanessa and Shawn had rented earlier in the evening even though they had already seen it a million and one times. I couldn't help from having memories of the night that Marlon and I went to the movies to see it. It was during a time when I could never see him doing any wrong as far as I was concerned.
"Karmyn, baby...I know you're hurtin', but you have more important things to worry about like your finals next week.", Granny Jo sighed as she came to sit down next to me after I sat up at the sound of her voice.
"I know, but what did I do that was so wrong after four years for Marlon to do what he did to me?", I sobbed as I placed my head on her chest while she wrapped her arms around me.
"You didn't do anything. Sometimes, these things happen. But in time you'll get over it.", she sighed while patting my back.
"I don't think I ever will.", I cried even harder as I buried my head deeper into her chest.
"Shhhhh...it's gonna be aight, baby. It's gonna be alllllright.", she reassured me as she held me until I couldn't cry anymore. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Karmyn? Karmynnnn?", Vanessa huffed bringing me back to the present.
"Oh, huh?", I asked while sitting up in the chair.
"I asked if you needed anything?"
"No...no thank you.", I faintly replied while wiping away at the tears welling up in my eyes before they had a chance to fall.
"Are you sure?"
"Yes, I'm sure.", I chuckled. "Well, ummmm...I guess I'd betta go down to Circuit City real quick. I forgot that I need to pick up a printer cartridge. I was gonna do it this afternoon when I went to pick up DJ from school, but in all the excitement of knowin' that my baby hurt himself, I forgot."
"Okay then, sweetie. Well you call me if you need me, okay?"
"Yeah, I will and thanks.", I smiled.
"You're welcome. Bye."
"Bye."
After going back into the den, I told DJ that I had to run down the mall and that it was time for him to turn his video game off and study for a lil' while.
"Awwww c'mon, ma! Do I have to now?", he sighed while turning his head to look at me. I could've sworn I was looking at his father for a quick second.
"Yeah, boo. I'll be back in a few minutes. Do you want me to fix you a snack or anything before I leave?", I asked as I walked over to him and placed a kiss on his forehead.
"Nah, I'm straight.", he replied while watching me as I walked over to the tv to turn the video game off. I don't know if he could see that I had been on the verge of crying or what. "Ma, are you okay?"
"Yeah, sweetie, I'm fine. Why?"
"I was juss wonderin'.", he replied as he pulled his pre-algebra book and notes from his backpack.
"Okay. Well like I said, I won't be long."
"Aight."
When I climbed behind the wheel of my ride and turned it on, I took another trip down memory lane while thinking about my son‘s father… ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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Post by Sweet Meat aka CC on Jul 13, 2004 22:23:11 GMT -5
Spring 1992... As I walked across campus to head to Derek's dorm, I shut the world off around me. A few hours earlier after taking a trip to the health department, I had learned that I was almost three month's pregnant with his baby. I could say that it was a long story on how this happened, but it's not the case. The point was that after I found out that Marlon had been cheating on me, I thought I was getting back at him by seeing Derek even though I knew that they could hardly stand each other.
Not too long after Derek and I began to go out, we also began to have sex and it was during one of those times that I gave in to doing it without the use of anything because I was for the most part blinded and ignorant by how special Derek made me feel as far as my low self-esteem went. Well because of my bad judgement, here I was going into my second year of college with a baby on the way.
"Karmyn!", Marlon yelled out across the campus as he noticed me heading in his direction where he was standing around with some of his friends. However, I shot him a nasty look without opening my mouth as I continued to head for Derek’s dorm.
"Look, girl…how many times do I have to say I’m sorry?!", he sighed after running up next to me.
"I'm not tryna hear all that right now, Marlon! Okay?!", I huffed as I made my way inside the dorm. As soon as I saw Derek making his way up to his room, I called his name to get his attention.
"W'sup?", he asked as he made his way over to me while Marlon stood off to the side watching us.
"We need to talk.", I replied.
"Now? I have to get ready for baseball practice."
"Yeah, now. It's really, REALLY important."
"Well I guess I have a minute.", he sighed as he took a hold of my hand so we could talk under the stairwell away from everyone else, or so we thought since Marlon made himself unknown as he sat at the top of the stairs without us seeing him.
"Now what is it that you have to tell me?", Derek smiled while taking one of my hands into his that he proceeded to kiss.
I wanted to tell him, but instead of opening my mouth, tears began to run down my face.
"Karmyn? What is it?!", he whispered with an anxious look in his eyes.
"I just came from the health department and I'm...I'm...", I started before lowering my eyes.
"Are you tryna tell me you're pregnant?"
All I could do was nod my head as my tears continued to fall.
"Well, it's not MINE!", he huffed out of anger as he quickly backed away from me.
"What?!", I sobbed while looking at him in disbelief.
"For all I know, you coulda been easily talked into fvckin' with another n!gga like you were talked into it with me! So I'm sayin' that it's not mine!", he yelled.
"You sorry ass, son-of-a-bitch!!!", Marlon shouted as he came rushing down the stairs. He immediately got into a fist fight with Derek. The proceeded to rearrange the furniture. It took three guys to pull them apart. As soon as they were able to, Marlon looked over in my direction.
"Karmyn, wait!", he yelled as he saw me turn and run out the door. By the time he came outside, I was already half-way across campus as I ran back to my apartment. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ About an hour later while I was still lying across my bed crying over everything that seemed to be coming down on me all at once, the sound of Yasmine letting someone in caused me to sit up in the bed. That's when I recognized Vanessa and Shawn's voice. I forgot that this was the weekend they were coming down for a visit since Marlon was going to be performing his stand-up routine for the very first time as an opening act for the concert our school was having featuring A Tribe Called Quest, MC Lyte, Queen Latifah, Black Sheep and De La Soul to raise funds for a new wing to be added onto the library.
"Karmyn, you have some things here to see ya!", Yasmine joked as she knocked on my door.
"Okay! I'll be right out!", I replied as I tried my best to freshen up my face.
Earlier when Yasmine and I talked, I had her promise me that she wouldn't utter one word about my baby to anyone. As soon as I smoothed out my clothes, I slowly opened my door to join everyone.
"Hey, girl!", Shawn smiled while waving from the armchair he was seated in.
"Hey.", I faintly smiled back with a weak wave.
"Karmyn...what's wrong?", Vanessa asked as she stood up and headed towards me with opened arms.
"I need to tell you somethin'.", I whispered after our hug. I told Shawn and Yasmine to excuse us while we headed for my room.
"What's goin' on?", she asked after we were sitting on my bed.
"I'm pregnant by Derek.", I whispered as if someone could hear us.
"Karmyn!", she whispered back with widened eyes. "So what did he say? Or have you told him yet?"
"Yeah, I told his sorry ass and he's denyin' it."
"He's WHAT?!", she angrily yelled while jumping up from the bed to turn around and face me.
"He's denyin' it. He said some pretty nasty things to me too sayin' that it's probably somebody else's since I was so easy with him.", I sighed as more tears began to fall. "But...Marlon...he, he overheard us talkin' and pretty much kicked his ass."
"And now I'ma pick up where he left off! Shawn...!", she yelled as she flung my door open and stomped back into the living room, "...Let's go! We gotta take care of somethin'!!!"
"Why, what's goin' on?!", he asked with an anxious look as he and Yasmine both stood up.
"Nessa, please! Let me handle this okay?!", I pleaded as I followed her over to the front door.
"Nope! I've got a sorry ass n!gga's ass to kick! Now c'mon, Shawn! We're wastin' time!"
"Wait, what are yall talkin' about?!", he demanded to know while looking back and forth at us.
After I told him what took place earlier in the day, he and Vanessa left my place without saying another word.
"Well, c'mon...we gotta stop them before they're crazy asses go to jail!", Yasmine sighed as she and I left in her car to follow them.
As soon as we arrived in front of Derek's dorm, Vanessa jumped out along with Shawn while waiting on me.
"Aight, girl! Lead me to his sorry ass!", she huffed while following behind me. However, Yasmine noticed Derek heading our way. In the meantime, Marlon was on his way outside of the dorm when he noticed Shawn and Vanessa.
"There he go right there!", Yasmine announced while pointing at Derek.
"Where?!", Vanessa and I both asked at the same time. However, I saw him as soon as I turned my head to the right.
"Okay, gimme room!!!", Vanessa yelled which caused several people to look in our direction.
"Hey, man. W'sup?", Marlon asked Shawn with a puzzled look after reaching us.
"We heard about Karmyn's news so I'ma let my girl handle the situation.", Shawn chuckled as they exchanged pounds.
"Oh.", Marlon replied with a serious look before both he and Shawn started laughing.
"Karmyn...I was just about to come see you.", Derek smiled as he approached me. When he tried to reach out for my hand, I backed away and in no time flat, Vanessa was up in his grill.
"Who the hell are you?", he asked in a calm manner as they glared deeply into each other's eyes.
"I'm Karmyn’s sister, and it's my duty to kick your sorry ass for makin' her upset today with the sh!t you said to her and for denyin' the baby!!!", she hissed as she began to roll up her sleeves while not being able to stand still. Within seconds, everyone standing nearby began to surround us; especially the dudes since they wanted to see a fight.
"Girl, you sound crazy sayin' you gonna kick my ass!", Derek laughed in a nonchalant manner before looking around her. "Karmyn, baby, let’s go somewhere to talk, okay?" Again, he reached out to try to take my hand.
"fvck you!", I spat while rolling my eyes.
"Yup that's right! 'Cause you about to be FU<KED UP!!!", Vanessa shouted which caused the guys to cheer.
"You need some help, sweetie!", Derek laughed once again.
"Nah, n!gga! You the one gonna need some help! She's not playin'!", Marlon laughed while watching them.
I couldn't help from laughing as well but when I noticed that he looked over in my direction with a big grin on his face, I quickly looked away.
"That's right, man! I wouldn't take her as a joke right now!", Shawn warned.
"Soooo what'chall tryna tell me is that this bitch could whup MY ass?!", Derek asked with a suck of his teeth. It's like the earth stopped for a moment as silence fell over the crowd. I watched Vanessa slowly lowering her fists down to her sides while both Yasmine and I covered our mouths in shock. Then it happened…Shawn let out a loud gasp and Marlon let out a shrill, blood-curdling scream.
"What?", Derek asked while looking at them like they were crazy.
Before answering him, Marlon and Shawn looked at each other, then they turned back around to face him.
"Oooooooh, you in trouble because you just called her a bitch!", they replied at the same time. Derek shook his head and rolled his eyes at them as he proceeded to turn his head back around to face Vanessa. That's when his nose was met by her fist. He went stumbling back into one of the bystanders’ arms as everyone began to laugh and cheer Vanessa on.
"It takes a bitch to know a bitch don't it?! Well, c'mon with your punk ass! I'ma show how a bitch operates!", she shouted at him while bobbing around with her fists in the air.
"kiss my @$$!", he snapped as he pushed his way through the crowd to head back for the dorm to take care of his bloodied nose.
After things settled down, Yasmine and I were heading back over to her ride to go home when I felt someone gently grab up to my hand. When I turned around, I saw that it was Marlon.
"Can we go somewhere and talk?", he asked as he stared into my eyes.
"No, Marlon. I'm sorry. But there's absolutely nothin' left for us to talk about. Goodbye.", I sighed as I pulled my hand away from his. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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Post by Sweet Meat aka CC on Jul 13, 2004 22:27:55 GMT -5
"Karmyn?! What are you doin' here, hon?!", Daddy smiled at me when Vanessa took me home the next day while Shawn decided to stay down in DC with Marlon for the rest of the weekend.
"Hey, I have somethin' I need to tell you and Pam.", I sighed as we shared a warm hug.
"She and your Granny Jo went to the grocery store, but they should be back soon. But you can go ahead and tell me.", he replied with a puzzled look while glancing over at Vanessa as she headed for the sofa to sit down.
"Well, ummmm...I'd really like to wait until she's here too.", I faintly stated as I went over to the sofa to sit down next to Vanessa.
"Is it so bad that you wanna wait to tell us or is it so good that you wanna wait?", he asked while taking a seat in his recliner next to us.
"Both.", I sighed. "I'm a lil' hungry so I'ma go raid the fridge.", I weakly joked as I quickly stood up and walked out of the den.
"Yeah, so am I.", Vanessa quickly stated since we both knew that Daddy would start asking her questions.
"I know Daddy's gonna hate me when I tell him.", I mumbled before sipping on some orange juice when I saw Vanessa walk into the kitchen.
"No he won't. He may get a lil' upset, but he won't hate you.", she reassured me as she took a seat at the kitchen table.
"I'ono. He has worked so hard so he could send me to college and I have basically fvcked that up in more ways than one!", I sighed as I flopped down in a chair across from her.
"Karm, you've always been the type to carry out what you put your mind to. Now for as long as I can rememba, you've always wanted to own your own business and when it comes to your school work, you always give nothin' but your best. So this one setback shouldn't stop you from doin' what'cha wanna do.", Vanessa faintly smiled while looking at me.
"I know, but man...", I sighed while shaking my head.
"Well, you know I'm here for you."
"Thanks.", I smiled.
Just then, we heard Granny Jo's loud mouth coming inside with Pam. “Pierre!!!! Come help us with these groceries, son!", she yelled as they toted several bags inside. "Hey, what are my babies doin' home?!" She proceeded to give both me and Vanessa big hugs followed by Pam after they set the bags down on the countertops while Daddy went outside.
"I have some news I need to share that couldn't wait until I come home for Spring break in a few weeks.", I replied as I sat back down at the table.
"Oh? Well, if you couldn't tell us over the phone, then it must be very important.", Pam stated while looking from Granny Jo to Vanessa who lowered her head.
"Yeah, it is.", I sighed with a nod of my head. "Hey, lemme help out with puttin' these things away."
"No...we'll do this later. As soon as your father finishes bringin' the rest of the groceries in, we're gonna sit down and listen to what you have to tell us because now I can't wait.", Granny Jo stated. With that, we all walked back into the living room while Daddy brought the last of everything inside.
"Okay, Karmyn. What's the news?", Daddy asked as he and Pam sat together on the loveseat while watching me as I sat in between Vanessa and Granny Jo on the sofa.
"Ummmm...I went to the doctor on yesterday and found out that I'm almost three months pregnant.", I replied in one breath while looking down at my hands that I was nervously wringing in my lap.
"Oh my God!", Daddy sighed in disbelief while looking up at the ceiling.
"Karmyn, what's the meaning of this?", Pam asked with a look of disappointment on her face.
"I'm sorry.", I sighed as tears welled up in my eyes.
"Sorry?! You're sorry?! Dammit, I've done nothin' but try to make a betta life for you so you wouldn't have to end up livin' on the system like so many girls your age have to do now because they were too STUPID to keep their legs closed and their heads in a book! You haven't even been in college that long and now you're gonna have to drop out because I'll be DAMNED if I pay your way through school while you try to raise your baby!", Daddy angrily yelled.
"Calm down, sweetie.", Pam calmly stated while holding onto his hand as she gently rubbed his back.
"Don't tell me to calm down! I've busted my ass for too long for her to do somethin' this dumb!"
"Who says that I can't keep up my grades while raisin' my baby?!", I cried while watching Daddy turning three shades of red.
"Don't gimme that bullsh!t! You're tryna convince yourself that it's easier than it really is! How are you supposed to go to school, study, work, and raise your baby all at the same time, Karmyn?! How?!", he shouted while glaring at me.
"It can be done!", I snapped.
"Yeah, if I could do it then I know she can.", Vanessa sighed while taking my hand into hers for reassurance.
"You have Shawn to help you out...Karmyn won't have Marlon around since he has this BIG dream of becomin' a damned comedian! He won't even be home half the time! And while we're on the subject of his ass, do his parents know yet?!", Daddy asked.
"Know? They don't need to know nothin' because it's not his.", I quietly stated.
"Karmyn! Baby, what's goin' on with you?!", Granny Jo asked while looking at me in disbelief this time.
"I don't believe it! I just DON'T believe it!", Daddy chuckled with a shake of his head while looking at Pam.
"Karmyn, whose baby is it?", Pam asked.
"It's a guy that I started seein' after Marlon."
"On the rebound right? Didn't I tell you not to be bothered by that puppy love relationship you and Marlon had and to concentrate on your school work instead? Didn't I tell you that, Karmyn?", Daddy calmly asked this time while burying his head in his hands as he leaned forward.
"Yes."
"Then how come you couldn't do that one simple thing?"
Instead of answering him, I leaned over into Granny Jo's arms as I began to heavily sob. She gently rubbed my back while whispering that everything would be okay.
"Son, whether it's real love or puppy love, it still hurts the same.", Granny Jo stated while looking over at him.
"But besides that, what is she and the father of this child gonna do? Wait a minute...Karmyn...what does the father have to say about this situation that yall are in now?", Daddy asked.
"He, he...told me that he doesn't think it's his, but he's the only other person besides Marlon that I've been with.", I stated in between my crying spell.
"What?!", he, Pam, and Granny Jo stated at the same time.
Then it happened…before I could answer, Daddy said the one thing that cut me so deep that his words did more damage than a knife would have if it were plunged into my heart.
“I’m sure your mother is REALLY proud of you right now!”, he hissed while looking at me with a disgusted look.
“Pierre!!!!”, Pam and Granny Jo shouted at the same time.
I ran all the way up the stairs to my room and slammed the door shut before throwing myself across my bed to cry my heart out.
“I didn’t mean what I just said.”, he cried as he buried his head back in his hands.
“Son, some things you cannot take back after you say them.”, Granny Jo sighed before she headed up to my room.
“Can I come in?”, she asked while lightly knocking on my door as she opened it. However, I continued to cry without answering. I soon felt her sitting down on the foot of my bed.
“C’mere, honey.”, she stated while grabbing up to my hand.
“I don’t deserve to be looked at right now.”, I sobbed while trying to pull my hand from hers.
“Oh yes you do. You’re my baby and I can’t get through my day if I don’t see that face now c’mon and sit up for Granny Jo.”, she lightly chuckled as she managed to pull me up. She immediately began to wipe away my tears with the back of her fingers before kissing my forehead and pulling me into her arms. “You know your daddy didn’t mean what he said. That was just his hurt talkin’ especially since your grandpa was never there for him.”
“But he’s right. If ma were here, I’m quite sure she’d be just as upset too.”, I cried as I tightly held onto Granny Jo’s neck.
“IF she were here?! She never left! How many times do I have to tell you that she’s with you in here until yall meet again?”, Granny Jo smiled while lightly patting the area above my left breast. “And you know what else? She’ll always be proud of everything that you do so don’t let what your daddy said tear you down.”
“Yes ma’am.”, I sniffed as I placed my head on her shoulder. Over the next several minutes, we both sat in each other’s embrace while she hummed “Jesus Loves Me” like she used to do when I was little and went to her whenever I was teased or hurt myself.
“Karmyn?”, Daddy whispered as he stepped inside my room.
Lifting my head up from Granny Jo’s shoulder, I looked over at him before jumping up to go run into his arms.
“I’m so sorry, sweetie. You know Daddy loves you and Mommy does too.”, he stated as we both began to cry. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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Post by Sweet Meat aka CC on Jul 13, 2004 22:28:31 GMT -5
“Hey, hold up!”, Marlon shouted as his driver began to drive through the mall’s parking lot to leave after he did a bit of shopping for some new outfits. He had just noticed me walking over to my ride to leave after I picked up what I needed. When I started my ride up, I couldn’t help from screwing up my face when I heard 50 Cents’ “P.I.M.P.” playing. That’s when I realized that I had forgot to switch my radio back to its original channel since I had listened to my LL Cool J’s “Greatest Hits” CD on the way to the mall. I immediately changed it back to my favorite station. My spirits were immediately lifted when I heard The Jacksons’ “Dancing Machine” playing. I remember how momma used to tell me that she and Daddy would have me to dance to it every time company came over to visit us when I was around 2 or 3 years old. Anyway, I began to sing along to it as I proceeded to back out of my park when I had to suddenly slam on brakes after a silver Expedition with darkly tinted windows decided to come to a stop directly behind me. “What the hell is their problem?!”, I grumbled as I turned around in my seat to glare at whoever was in the ride. That’s when I noticed the back passenger door slowly opening. About a second later, I found myself quickly climbing out of my ride although I stood next to my opened door with a look of happiness on my face although I felt the waterworks coming on. “Hey, Karm.”, Marlon smiled as we stood staring at each other. I didn’t say anything. Instead, I started off walking but ended up running into his arms. We stood in a tight embrace for what seemed like an eternity. “I missed you so much.”, I sighed before placing a kiss on his cheek. “I missed you too.”, he replied. This time when I lifted my head up from his chest, he lowered his lips down onto mine. After our kiss, we held each other some more. [glow=yellow,1,200]***Part 3 Comin' Soon***[/glow]
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Post by AngelicVoices19 on Jul 14, 2004 4:03:50 GMT -5
Derek needed his butt kicked!! Good stuff girly! Can't wait for the next part!
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Post by *~*Lady K*~*~ on Jul 14, 2004 14:06:39 GMT -5
lmao@ Derek getting punched! That's what his triflin @$$ get! Girl this is off the chains. I can't wait to read the next part.
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Post by JUCIEE GUDNESS FROM DA HOOD on May 28, 2006 20:33:52 GMT -5
Still waiting on part 3!!! U slipping Girl!! LOL j/k
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Post by Sweet Meat aka CC on May 29, 2006 16:35:18 GMT -5
U slipping Girl!! LOL j/k This pretty much sums up the main reason behind my writer's block within the past few months--hehehe:
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Post by JUCIEE GUDNESS FROM DA HOOD on May 29, 2006 17:29:13 GMT -5
LOL YOu are silly!!!
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